Mixed salad of my heart...

The juicy red tomatoes and crispy lettuce are mocking me as I toss them around in the salad bowl. They know the truth...... My soul is crying a river of tears with every bite. Starving for a well cooked meal. But for one reason I don't mind, I carry on just for you. Hoping and praying that one fine day you will look at me the same way as the first day we met. I long to be loved to feel your loving touch, your warm embrace. A thousand needles pierce through my already shattered heart each time you glance at another girl. Each time I wonder, who are you thinking of when you hold me in your arms. Have your thoughts abandoned me for her? Do you secretly wish you were holding her? I just want you to love me, I need you to love me! Can't you see that I am doing everything to be beautiful in your eyes. When Will I succeed?